I am so ready, but at the same time, I know that I still have a lot to learn and grow from but I really do want to have a child with John. It is hard to be around his family and get the question, 'when are the kids coming?' or 'when I am going to get grandchildren (from both families)?'
I am looking forward to being pregnant and having my own child to take care of. Don't get me wrong, I love looking after Adelaide and Ezra, but I want my own. I know I am still young and have many years ahead of me, but why not start now? I want to have a child while we are still living with Justin and Amy so that I have live-in support and guidance. With John being done with school so soon, it would be nice to start thinking about, and talking about, the possibilities/options of conceiving our first child.
Ultimately, I have to remember that God has a plan for me and my life and in due time he will grant the desires of my heart.
