Boys will be boys

I can't believe the feelings I am having right now. My worst nightmare just happened in real life. Tim just broke up with me. I feel like I am having withdrawl symptoms of a drug. I am shaking uncontrollably, I am shivering from being cold, yet I am sweating at the same time. I don't understand yet I do. He needs some time to grow on his own and he doesn't think it is fair to me. But at the same time, I love him and he loves me. I don't know, my head is filled with mixed emotions, I can't think straight. I just want this to all be one big mistake or a dream. I want to be with Tim, and I can't and that hurts. Basically I am just hurting right now.

homosexuality

How do I feel about homosexuality? I disagree with it. But then again I can accept that other people are gay because they may not believe in God like I do. Is it ok to think that way? Or should I not think it is ok BECAUSE I believe in God. Should I not hang out or be friends with homosexuals just because they don't believe what I believe? But then what about my friends who are not christian, should I not hang with them because they don't believe what I believe? I am just not sure of my stance on homosexuals.

The other thing that bothers me are those gays that proclaim they are Christians yet live the lifestyle of being gay. I don't understand. If they are true Christians, they should know that homosexuality is a sin. So if they are gay, then they cannot be Christian. I am just confused. Are they saved or not? If anyone can answer my question, please let me know. Thanks.

You might be asking what brought this about. I was just watching MTV's Real World and there is a gay man that comes from a Christian family and says that he is a Christian.

Rain Rain Go Away

Just kidding, I don't want the rain to go. It makes me feel like I am back home. You can't say that the rain sucks. It is such a blessing and such a wonderful change from the nasty heat we have been having. We needed the change of weather whether you like it or not.

So I like the rain, but I am so sick of school. I recently got back a political science test. Thought I did pretty well but my grade showed otherwise. I got a D+. Not so good. I understand the Constitution and the political system and how it works, but I missed all of the people. It was so dumb. Oh well, nothing I can do about that now, I just have to keep working and study harder for the next test. I cannot wait to be finished with all these useless general ed classes.

What is this stupid show?

What are you all doing this Friday? Hopefully nothing except sitting at home in front of your computer or your tv (if you have satellite). Why would you do this? Because you will see me on the show I am about to tell you.

I have working on a tv show in Washington for about a year or so, and our first episode/pilot show will be airing this Friday at 10 on JC-TV. You need to check it out and then tell JC-TV how good it was. Please please please. We really want this show to take off and I would appreciate your help. Thanks a bunch. If you have any questions about the show please feel free to call or comment.

Oh, by the way. The show is similar to David Letterman but with Christians. We are all about having fun on the show and sharing our testimony with our audience and viewers.

Mr. Clean or whatever you have under the sink

So yesterday was not my sabbath, I spent my afternoon cleaning our absolutely nasty kitchen. I spent a total of 3.5 hours scrubbing and washing dishes that had been sitting in our sink for weeks. I found my new favorite product to get rid of "dirt and grime and grease in just a minute." No it was not Mr. Clean (although I am a fan of his Magic Eraser). Bar Keepers Friend is now my new best friend. That stuff works miracles. It got rid of our nasty grease on the stove and countertops. So yeah, that was my Sunday afternoon.

Hello, are you there?

Ok I know Andrew, it has been awhile. That just shows how busy I have been. School and work are taking over my life. It sucks. I don't even know what has happened since I last posted.

But here is what is going on now.

I talked to my mom the other night for almost 2.5 hours and got caught up on the things that were going on with different family members. Lives are changing and I am not aware of them. She also told me about some stuff that happened at my old job at Coho Cafe. One of my close friends had left a crack pipe in the employee bathroom. She obviously got caught and has signed herself into a rehab. facility. The first weekend that she was there, she was sent home because she had to have her gallbladder removed. Needless to say, she is not doing so well. All I have to say is thank God she is willing to go to rehab and that she realizes she has a problem.

I am still looking for a new job if anyone has any ideas. Keep me posted.

Worries

I have thinking a lot lately about my life and my faith and trust in God. I have been looking for jobs in the area that are somewhat less stress and less hours. At the same time, I am worried about not making enough money to support myself and all of the things (bills, rent, gas, etc.) that need to be paid. But then I struggle with thinking that way because God tells us in Matthew 6: 25-34 to "not worry about what we shall eat, drink or wear" and also to "not worry about tomorrow." I am not really worried about eating or wearing and all that, but I still need to make enough money to live where I live. I guess I can apply the above passage to that as well but it is hard. It is so frustrating. I just want to be able to have money and not have live paycheck to paycheck. Wouldn't that be nice?

Practice makes perfect, or so they say

I just got back from my last class of the day. It is my "Emergency Procedures" class. Pretty fun to tell you the truth. We learn all about CPR and first aid and get certified at the end of the semester.

So today we talked about Cardiopulmonary Resuscitation (CPR) and the steps involved. We were supposed to get into pairs and practice, however we ran out of time. Our instructor told us that we really do need to practice the steps in order to pass our practical. So if anyone is interested, Nicole and I need "dummies" to practice on. It should be fun. If you think you know CPR already, try this test given by the American Red Cross.

So sorry

So I have been a little busy as you can see by my lack of posts from the week. I have been actively seeking another job. I applied at Linens 'N Things and they told me they weren't hiring. Sad day. Oh well.

Wednesday afternoon Nicole and I went up to Granada Hills to watch the reveal of Extreme Makeover: Home Edition. It was pretty interesting to see how much they cut out of the show and how it really works behind the scences.

Bible Study on Thursday went well I thought. Especially considering I had to interpret for awhile. I thought I did a fair job, as well as I could do. So after finishing we talked and mingled for awhile and made plans for mini-golf again on Sunday.

This weekend I was determined to do something other than just sitting around doing nothing by myself. Friday night after work, Andrew came over and cooked dinner for me, very yummy. Then we went over to Jen Spence's for a night of playing Pinochle (fun game, not only for old people). It was nice and fun, even though Kerri and I lost. Of course, I went to sleep early because I had to work at 7 on Saturday.

Work was a lot of fun. Good times at the coffee shop. David and I really got to know eachother and bonded on a different level. He is so funny. He is the most cultured boy I know. He listens to all kinds of music, hangs out with all different people, enjoys doing all sorts of things. He even made a list of activities that he wanted to do in the upcoming weekends. Pretty unique guy. So that was a good day at work. And of course after I came home and slept all day because everybody was gone to the beach house.

This morning a group of us went to Sherman Oaks Castle Park to play a game of mini-golf before church started. It was a lot of fun. Andrej and Sarah showed up, nice to see them (it has been awhile). Also, Brian M, Betsy, Lance and Andrew and I played a full 18 holes. At one point we were the only group there and after every hole, we would look back and there would be another group catching up to us. One group in particular was just a man and his wife and one son. He came charging through yelling that we were so slow and he couldn't believe how long it was taking us. We just let him pass and then ended up having to wait for them on the next hole, no biggie, we weren't in a hurry like he was. It was kind of a sad game, Andrew was having some problems with getting the ball in the hole, so he got upset. It was humorous to all of us, but definitely not to him (sorry buddy). So yeah, that has been my life. Pretty boring I know.

If anyone knows of a decent paying part-time job let me know please. Thanks.

Ghetto land

Last night Joseph and Andrew and I were trying to find something cheap and fun to do. We decided that Sherman Oaks Castle Park was the way to go. Once we got there we felt like the "old people." It is definitely a younger crowd and a ghetto crowd. It was still fun though, especially watching Joseph swing the putter like he was trying to drive a ball down the fairway of a full size golf course. Good times boys!!

Today I was kind of sad going to church. I had invited a girl from work to come with me because she asked about the college group. I was driving down to the dorms to pick her up and she called me and said that she had changed her mind and didn't want to come. Bummer dude! Oh well church was good anyways.

Pastor Jim had an awesome talk today that really touched my heart and my life situation right now. He spoke about "passion." Who or what am I passionate about? I really think that I am spending too much time on other things and not on God. I am passionate about my belief, but I do nothing to show others that I am passionate about Christ. That saddens me to think that because my life is so busy that I have no time or don't make time to be with God. It sucks, and it's convicting. Very good sermon.

So after church today, we all went to Del Taco for Miss Angela's birthday. While we were there we ran into people wearing bright blue t-shirts from Extreme Makeover: Home Edition. We thought, "they must be doing a show around here." So we asked them and it was just a few blocks up the street. So being the curious minds that we are, John and Nicole and I went up to check it out. Pretty cool process. Then John made a death wish. He wanted to go to Costco on a Sunday afternoon.

I know better than to go to Costco on any weekend day. Sundays are especially bad. The lines are long and everybody just pushes around and it is pure madness. But today was good because we got Gelato (Italian ice cream). Very yummy stuff. Now I need to go read for hours on end for homework. HELP ME!!!!!

Work History

For those of you that don't know where I work, I work at a coffee shop on campus where I am an overworked supervisor. I recently got the promotion and now I am working a lot of hours and doing 3 times as much work for not very much money. $7.65 to be exact. Does that sound like the kind of money a supervisor should be making? NO!

Anyhow, so today we were supposed to be busy because there was a sorority party next door. I was not exactly thrilled about the idea because on Saturdays there is only one other person and myself. So I went in expecting the worst and it actually ended up to be quite nice. Not too slow, but not too busy.

Now I am just hanging out waiting for something to do. Maybe I will just lay around and catch up on sleep and do some homework.

Friday night boredom

So here I am sitting all alone in my apartment and then the phone rings and it's Andrew. The two of us were bored sitting around so he decided to make me my very own Blog. So here it is, my own Blog.