I can't believe the feelings I am having right now. My worst nightmare just happened in real life. Tim just broke up with me. I feel like I am having withdrawl symptoms of a drug. I am shaking uncontrollably, I am shivering from being cold, yet I am sweating at the same time. I don't understand yet I do. He needs some time to grow on his own and he doesn't think it is fair to me. But at the same time, I love him and he loves me. I don't know, my head is filled with mixed emotions, I can't think straight. I just want this to all be one big mistake or a dream. I want to be with Tim, and I can't and that hurts. Basically I am just hurting right now.