Thursday, June 09, 2005

catchin up

Alright Andrew here it is. I am finally posting. I know it has been awhile, but other things are taking up my time, such as MySpace.

I am already stressed with work, although I love working at the church. There is a lot of work, but I love the people and it is so nice to have my own office and be able to sit.

Other than working, I just hang out with John. My life is pretty boring right now, I wake up go to work, come home hang out for a few hours, go to sleep and do it all again the next day.


Friday, May 06, 2005

Going Places

My life couldn't be better. I am so thankful for everything that happened in the past month of my life, whether it be good or bad.

I am thankful for the friends that I have made down here in California. I am thankful that God has provided for me when I didn't think I was going to make it. God is faithful in all ways. I am thankful that I have a new beautiful apartment and a wonderful new job.

I just started working at my church (First Pres. Granada Hills) as the "office assistant." I am not sure that the title really matches the job description, but that is what I am. I am responsible for creating and running the powerpoint on Sundays and doing a lot of paper/computer work, and making the weekly and monthly bulletins. It is a big responsibility and I have some big shoes to fill, but I think I am capable.

All of this sounds good, but I am still not in the clear. I still have to finish my last week at the coffee shop, the last few weeks of school, and finishing up the old apartment and organizing this one.

Got stuff to do. Peace.

Monday, May 02, 2005

'Tis the season

It is that time of year again where I stress out because I have so much to do and the end of the semester is fast approaching.

I have been slacking and am now kicking myself in the butt for it. Anyhow, enough of this wasting time crap, I have to get back to work.

If I don't post for awhile, I am attempting to study. You are more than welcome to call and check on my progress.

Peace, I mean stress. G'nite.

Thursday, April 28, 2005

Out of service

Sorry I have been away for awhile. Nicole and I are finishing moving into our new apartment and we just got our internet hooked up yesterday. Wahoo, it is about time.

Anyhow, I am off to study/sleep and get some things put away in this beautiful apartment. I love it!!!!

I am actually going to go to bible study tonight, wow, I haven't done that in awhile. Later.

Thursday, April 21, 2005

I shoulda known

Don't you hate being sick and missing class? That isn't even the worst.

What is worse is what happened to me today. As you know I have been sick for the past week and a half or so. Today is the first day that I have gone to all my classes today. I was sitting in my room thinking about what was going on in my communication and the sexes class and I decided to take a look at the syllabus. I was just gonna check and see what I missed. Well what do you know, 4/21- EXAM 2. Just wonderful!!! I have missed the last two classes and don't have the notes for the class. Just my luck, I should have known we would be having a test.

Luckily I had been caught up on the reading and articles, but still, I missed a video and the almighty important in class discussion groups. Oh well. I think I can pull a C. Hopefully.

I am praying for a miracle. At least it is over and I don't have to worry about it anymore.

Monday, April 18, 2005

Love, or something like it

I have been thinking alot lately about love. What does it mean to be in love with someone? What does it feel like? Love is such a mystery with so many different sides. I love alot of people in my life. I love each member of my family, I love my friends, those close and even the distant ones. I love a man. But each of these loves is different and causes different emotions to arise within me.

I am not saying that these things are bad, but sometimes I just don't understand the emotion of love. It feels so amazing to be loved and to be in love, but sometimes it hurts too. Not hurt in the sense of pain, but a hurt that is sadness. I am not sure how to explain this, and I don't feel I have to.

Maybe I am thinking too much instead of just following my heart and continuing to walk down the path that God has laid out for me.

Saturday, April 16, 2005

Taking one for the team

Last night we took the SURGE (junior high) students to the ice rink for a fun game of broomball. For those of you that don't know what that is, it is similar to hockey except you don't have skates, just your shoes, and you use a broom and ball, no hockey sticks or puck. It is funny to watch people try and run and then fall on their butts.

Of course my team won, no thanks to me though. I helped assist a few goals but didn't score any of my own. I did take a few falls though trying to get the ball away from the other team. I fell really hard on my knees and now I have a huge bruise and lump on my left knee. Oh well I am tough.

After we got back to the church, we were waiting for the last few parents to come pick up their children. I don't know how it got started, but we ended up playing four square on the church patio. The ball was hit into my square and I sort of had to reach for it. I lost my balance and fell into the tree. I am serious, I fell onto the tree and scraped my arm. What a great night. We had so much fun with all the kids. They really enjoyed it.

Props to Bruce Landon for taking two chunks of skin off either side of his face and Andrew Seely for eating everyone's leftover pizza crust.

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Living Spaces

Oh my gosh.....I cannot believe I just did this. Nicole and I went to the apartment complex we were looking at to just drop off our applications. I was not expecting to be signing papers and planning on moving in next weekend. So ya, you heard it, we are moving into our new apartment next friday and saturday. Woohoo!!!! I felt so horrible for Anne (our new roommate) because we totally sprang this moving thing on her.

The reason we are moving so quickly is because we got a killer deal. Normal rent is $1550 a month, but if we move in within the next 10 days, our rent will drop to only $1395 a month for the duration of our lease. That is a killer deal and we couldn't pass it up. Anyhow, if any of you reading this are free next Saturday the 23rd, we could use some help moving.

God has blessed Nicole and I in so many ways lately. Thank you Lord. G'nite.

Monday, April 11, 2005


I have been praying for something to happen and God has begun to answer my prayers. I don't feel like I am at liberty to say what is happening, but what I can say is that it has been a long time coming, and I am so happy that this day has come.

I am thankful for answered prayers and for the Holy Spirit acting/speaking for me when I don't know what to say. I am thankful for my sister Kim and her husband Donnie, and their two beautiful children Mitchell and Erika. I love you guys!!! Now come down and visit me gosh darn it!!

I need to get some sleep. I am still sick and have a western civ test tomorrow. Wish me luck. G'nite.

Good music

I am still feeling crappy and down in the dumps, but I was able to get my butt up and go to the Jars of Clay concert at Azusa on Saturday night. It was amazing.

I had never heard of the first group, "Small Boat Sinking" but they were pretty good. I wasn't too fond of the girls voice, but they were good. Check 'em out for yourself. Next was Tyrone Wells. What do I say about him? He was amazing. I love his music, he sounded so good. I was kinda ticked though because we were in the front row and there were a ton of people standing in front of us so it was hard to see. Thanks to Percy for saving all of us seats. Jars of Clay was awesome too. There were only four of them and all they had were two guitars and keys, but they sounded good that way. It was kinda of chill, really laid back but again I couldn't just sit in my chair and enjoy the music because of the people standing in front of me. That was disappointing, but we dealt with it. Good concert, all three bands were great, and I had fun. Period, end of story.

Friday, April 08, 2005

Death Becomes Her

I feel like crap today. My throat hurts, my nose is running, and I have a nasty cough. I guess it happens to the best of us and it is the season for sickness. My parents are both so sick they missed a week of work, and can't even take care of each other, how sad.

Prayers for Grandma would be appreciated. She had her blood transfusion this morning. Not sure how she is doing, mom has not called me.

Today I am thankful for Ruben. Happy Birthday!!! You are 21 now. Wahoo.

Thursday, April 07, 2005

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Just to let you all know, I changed my comments thanks to Andrew. He spent a whole half an hour helping me change from crappy comments to Haloscan comments. So now my blog is cool.

If you decide you want to comment on a post, please click on the word comments, or the link on the left. The ones on the right are my old comments. Thanks Andrew, and everyone who reads this.


Tuesday, April 05, 2005

Fit for Life

I have recently noticed some changes in my body. Not huge differences or negative ones, but I have just noticed that my muscles aren't as toned and my abs have a thicker covering over them. I have been wanting to get a gym membership for some time now, but just can't afford the monthly payments, and I want to join a gym where I know one of my friends works out at. So of course I haven't done anything about it and just put exercising on the back burner.

I went running one morning about a month ago and it felt amazing to get out and do something physical. Although the rest of the week I was sore, I felt good. Now if I could only keep that up and go running more than once a month. I don't know what my problem is, I have become so lazy since high school and it sucks, I used to be so athletic (soccer and gymnastics) and now I just lay around all the time. Probably because my mother isn't around to get on my case and tell me to go do something, whether it be running or going to the gym.

I need to workout. I think that it helps me focus and stay alert, and plus, it makes me feel better about myself. We'll see what happens.

Maybe if I find a better paying job I will be able to afford that gym membership.

April Fools

I had this burning desire to play an April Fool's joke on my family, but I didn't want to be mean. My dad and I pulled one on my mom one time and she freaked out and started crying. I didn't want to play like I had gotten seriously injured because mom would have tripped out and wanted to come down right away (since her baby is in Cali and she is in Washington). So I didn't know what to do.

I kind of mentioned telling them that I had gotten engaged, but I wasn't sure how that would go over and I didn't think it would get them. So I decided I would be a nice daughter and not do anything. Then that burning got to me and I had to do something.

I talked to Nicole and we decided that I should just tell them that John and I got engaged. I had some pics from the beach that Andrew had taken, so I thought I would send those in an email along with my left hand with a ring on it. So that is what I did. I sent an email and explained "the story" and included the pics. My dad was the first to respond and just said congratulations and wondered why I sent the email without calling. I had him going for so long. Then he insisted that he call my mom and have her call me. So she did and then we 3 way called with my mom, dad, and myself. My mom was screaming and almost in tears with excited. All she could tell me was that she was happy for me and "OH MY GOSH, OH MY GOSH!!!" It was hilarious. I wanted John to hear, so I put my parents on speaker phone and Nicole used her phone to call John and put him on speaker phone. It was insane. Then the next thing I know my sister is on the phone as well, the whole freaking family was on the line. It was good times. It hurt so bad to have to tell them that John and I weren't really engaged. They were hurt and disappointed. And they called me a few names and told me I was in trouble. I was surprised that they weren't concerned that John and I have only been together for a month and that I am still in school. It was interesting to hear their reactions.

We played the same joke on John's mom and grandma later that night when we went out to Pasadena. His mom was more skeptical because this was the first time she had ever met me. John was disappointed that his mom wasn't more excited, but we understood. It was a good April Fool's this year.

Friday, April 01, 2005 favorite fruit

Here is sort of an addition to my blog from Wednesday night. After SURGE was finished and everything boiled over, the advisors were feeling like we needed some drinks. So we all headed over to Andrew's house to have some drinks and nachos (See Andrew's Ghetto Blog). I got the royal treatment and had a wine tasting evening. Now you have to understand that I do not like wine or beer. I just can't get over the taste. So I mentioned to Andrew that I had tried a glass of Shiraz and actually liked it, so then he brought out four bottles of wine and we sampled some of each. I really enjoyed three but the fourth one had been open for awhile, so the taste was off a little. I had a Sauvignon Blanc, White Zinfandel, Merlot, and the one I didn't like so much was Pinot Noir. Oh ya, I guess I tasted five wines because he brought another brand of Shiraz. It is weird, I never thought I would like wine, but it turns out I do. I just want to sample some more and see the different tastes. Maybe we will actually go to a wine tasting somewhere. Who knows.

I have also been wanting to go dancing. Not like club dancing, real dancing. I want to go to a blues or jazz lounge that serves dinner and drinks and also has a band that plays so you can get up and dance whenever you want. Do you know of anywhere like that close by? Let me know, thanks.

Also, please continue to pray for my grandmother, she is having some difficulties right now and may possibly have to have a blood transfusion. We find out today what is going on and what needs to happen in the near future. Thanks for the prayers.

Thursday, March 31, 2005

Fear Factor here I come

So tonight was SURGE (the junior high youth group that I am an advisor for). During the month of March we do what is called "March Madness." And it is madness. We are split into four teams and we do many things to compete against the others. The teams get points for coming, bringing their Bibles, dressing up with the team theme, and many other things. They also are awarded points for what place they get in the game and crowd breaker. Which brings me to tonight.

Tonight was the last day of March Madness and we saved the grossest, nastiest things for tonight. John was talking about fear and dying (to ourselves and spiritually, not physical death). So of course we had to do something related to fear....what better than our own version of Fear Factor. For the game we took a gatorade water cooler and rigged a "contraption" from the ceiling and put glow in the dark bouncy balls in the cooler and hung it from high above. We turned off all the lights and then pulled the lid off and kids had to collect as many balls as they could. It was pretty insane with it being so dark and there were a lot of kids.

Then for the crowd breaker we had each team send up three reps and made sure they weren't allergic to any foods. We placed in front of them three plates of wonderful foods: 1-sardines 2- dried squid that was seasoned with something and also some dried anchovies 3- half a can of boiled oysters. It smelled so raunchy in that room, I thought I was going to puke. So I got up and started announcing the crowd breaker and we carried on. The kids actually did better than I thought they would. However, my team and "your mom goes to college" (one of the other teams) could not finish so Andrew and I took over. I wanted to eat something and show myself that I could. Andrew got the plate with the squid (which he liked) and the anchovies, and I got stuck with the nasty slimy oysters. You better believe I won. I swallowed those things whole, I couldn't chew them, they were absolutely disgusting. I don't know how people eat those and enjoy them. Anyhow, I started to puke in my mouth, but I had to get them all down. I did, and got third place for my team. As soon as I was done, I ran to the back and started coughing and spitting and ended up throwing up. It was lovely, I had the most wonderful smelling breath (NOT)!!!. So ya, that was my big event of the day. Hope you enjoyed it. Good night.

Oh by the way, check out Andrew's Ghetto Blog. I made a guest appearance tonight.

Saturday, March 26, 2005

John trying to be Hee-Man and climb up the rock instead of going the easy route. Trying to show off for me.  Posted by Hello

John and I in a rock at Montana de Oro on our trip up the coast. I pulled my butt and leg muscle trying to get up into this stupid hole. But it was worth it.  Posted by Hello

Jono and Kelsey cutting up veggies for the pizzas and salad we made on Thursday night. I miss these kids.  Posted by Hello

John and My footprints at the beach in Cayucos. Posted by Hello

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Wednesday, March 23, 2005

Where is the love??

It is right here in front of me. I haven't been so happy in a long time. Crazy times. Anyhow, sorry I have not been posting, Life has been keeping me busy and away from home. And I have to admit, when I am home, I am either preoccupied or just plain ol' lazy. You should know that by now.

So some frustrations have come up lately for me. I am frustrated with the living situation here on Devonshire. It is not the roommate (whom I love), it is just the surroundings. I am not feeling safe, we have been having problems with leaks in the windows, and the management has been kinda lazy with things and not so helpful. Here is the frustrating part: I don't think I can afford to move out of here and pay for a new place. Which leads me to my next frustration.

Frustration #2: not having money. I have never lived like a college student really until now. I have been eating peanut butter and jelly, top ramen, and tuna fish for like a week now. I am so poor and I am not working enough hours to make money. I need money, I have bills to pay and groceries to buy, but no money. Yeah I have a wonderful boyfriend who pays for me a lot, but I can't live off of him, he needs to pay bills and buy groceries too. I just hate worrying about money, and I know that I shouldn't but it is hard to do. I know that God will provide for me.

Some prayer requests:
- my grandmother is sick, she has been battling some things and the doctor's don't really know what is wrong. I just ask for strength and encouragement for her and her spirit, and for wisdome for the doctors.
- Donnie (my bro-in-law)- his grandmother died earlier this week. So just pray for comfort for the family in this time of loss.
- Myself, I have been having a lot of back pain lately. It has gotten to the point where nothing is comfortable and I am in constant pain. I think it is just a flare up of my spondyloarthropathy (a.k.a. rheumatoid arthritis), but I am not sure, the pain is excruciating. I am going to the doctor's in the morning, so we will see what he has to say.

Please keep me and my family in your prayers. Love to all who read. God Bless!!!

Monday, March 07, 2005

What a weekend....

The past few days have been amazing. Not necessarily in a good way though. A lot has happened and I really haven't had much time to sit and write about it. So now I am taking the time.

Let me start by saying that this weekend was already crammed with fun activities, that I didn't need any more. I am going to kind of go day by day.

Friday was nothing unusual, I had class in the afternoon and then worked. Friday night I had to rush home after work and get dolled up to go to Kerri and Sharon's mystery dinner that they were hosting. Had tons of fun there. When I came home John came over and hung out for a little bit and we watced a movie and just chatted. We stayed up until about 1:30 and were dreading waking up in the morning to go snowboarding.

On Saturday me and my fellow SURGE advisors had to get up early and meet some students at the church at 6:15 to go snowboarding. Now mind you, John left my place at 1:30 so I am already not getting a lot of sleep. Nicole and I both prayed that night that God would help us to get enough sleep and be able to wake up in the morning.

Let me just tell you that God is faithful and He does answer your prayers, sometimes not in the way you might have expected. At 3:45 or 4 in the morning I woke up to a car horn honking, nothing unusual for our building and area. So off to sleep I went. A few moments later I was awoken by Nicole screaming for me to get out of bed because there was a fire in our apartment building. YIKES!!! I started to freak. I didn't know what was going on and I was petrified. So I grabbed my shoes and my jacket and cell phone and ran outside. As I left our front door I looked to the left where huge orange and black flames and cloud were shooting up from the end of our building. I wasn't sure if it was in the parking area or if the actual building was on fire. We evacuated the apartments, or tried to and the fire department was there immediately. I am not sure exactly what happened, but all I know is that 4 cars were burned down the frame, unrecognizeable. It was the scariest thing in my life. So needless to say, we got our "wake up" call. I just can't believe how God works in lives. He is so amazing. I have been learning so much and I am going to have to continue this post tomorrow, because I am so tired.

I am going to sleep but check back soon for a follow up post.

Today I am thankful for the food God has provided for me and for friends to cook it for me!!

Thursday, March 03, 2005

Yook it mommy!!!

I am so proud of myself that I have to write about it. I have been so bogged down with school lately and I also haven't been sleeping much. Needless to say, I am worn out and tired and a little weary, but I am hanging on to what hope I have left.

I am so happy and proud because I got an A on my western civ test. If you know me and history we don't usually get along. So I am very excited about that. Anyhow, I am off to class one more time today. Later.

Tuesday, March 01, 2005

Such a beautiful sunset to end the journey. This is just a reminder to me of how amazing and awesome God is and how much He has blessed me. Thanks John for risking your life hanging out the car window to take this for me.  Posted by Hello

Walking down the strip you see some interesting people. This man was wearing a nice suit and riding a little girl's pink bike. After crossing the street he actually chained it up to a garbage can at Burger King. So funny!! Posted by Hello

The whole gang after a long night of dancing and drinking at Studio 54. Who's missing? Oh ya, Dad is taking the picture.  Posted by Hello

We all had a fun night dancing at Studio 54.  Posted by Hello

Hot dancer at Studio 54 that I gave a $5 tip to. Oh ya!! Posted by Hello

I have a good excuse

Ok so I know it has been awhile, but I have been so busy and then this weekend I was in Vegas celebrating my birthday with John and my family. Here are some pics.

Sunday, February 20, 2005

Happy Birthday to ME!!!

Tonight is the eve of my 21st birthday. Yes I am turning 21, can you believe it? I sure as heck can't. I have been looking forward to this day for many years. Watching my brother and sister turn 21 and all of my cousins, now it is finally my turn.

I have this feeling of: now what do I do? I am not really sure besides drink some alcohol. Is there really anything special about 21? Hmmm, let me think........oh ya, drinking........umm oh and I can legally drive a rental car.....WAHOO!!! I don't know, I am just being stupid.

I am really excited, my boys and I are going out for my bday. I am glad to have friends that I can get drunk with that I know will take care of me and watch my back. I love you boys, and Nicole too. I can't forget about my roomie who threw some saltine crackers at me while I was puking my guts out the first time I got drunk. Thanks Nic. The anticipation is killing me. I want to know what is going to happen tomorrow night. Am I gonna get sick, silly, or sloppy? Not quite sure, but I am sure I will have fun no matter what happens.

I am most looking forward to this coming weekend, when John, Nicole and Andrew all go with me to Vegas for the weekend. We are going to be meeting Mom and Dad, Kim and Donnie, and hopefully Ted and Ann if they can make it. It is going to be crazy fun. Don't ask me how it was because you know, "what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas!" Just kidding, I am sure I won't be able to not tell what happens. Good times. Alright, well I am going to get some sleep, I am super tired from the long weekend. Later peeps.

Today I am thankful for the gift of life.

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

Am I drowning?

Lately I have had this feeling like I am falling behind in everything. Basically I think I am just getting overwhelmed with the schoolwork. I have so much reading and so much to think about and do for my interpreting class. It is only the third week and I feel like I can't stay on track with everything. It is not that I am not trying, believe me I am. I am reading and doing the assignments, but I still feel behind. I feel like things are just piling up in front of me. Maybe it is just because I have so many other things on my mind (such as my birthday). I am not really sure what is going on, I just hope I don't run myself ragged too soon. I know it will happen eventually.

Oh well, back to the studying and reading.

Today I am thankful for an awesome philosophy teacher.

Saturday, February 12, 2005

It's that time of year...

All I can think about is my birthday (which is coming up quickly). I am so excited, I can't wait. I am mostly stoked about going to VEGAS the weekend after my bday and meeting up with my family and just having some good ol' times in Sin City. Although I am kinda nervous because I know how crazy my fam can be, I am sure that they will take care of me though.

I am really getting sick of this whole reading and homework situation. I was on target and now I just can't seem to catch up with any one subject. It is really discouraging considering it is only the second week of school. Oh well, that means I need to go read some more. What a wonderful Saturday night. Later.

Today I am thankful for hot tubs and friends. G'nite.

Friday, February 11, 2005

"I've got sunshine on a cloudy day"

It is humorous to me how quickly the weather changes. A few days ago it was bright and sunny and comfortable. Now, today it is raining, and raining hard.

I am not complaining by any means, I am just making a statement. Don't get me wrong, I love the rain, I grew in Washington, I have to like it. I love sitting in my room, specifically laying in bed and just listening to the rain pour down on the roof, and whatever lies below.

I am off to class. Today I am thankful for the rain.

Thursday, February 10, 2005

Lent, not lint

So the lenten season has arrived. I can't believe it is almost Easter. It feels like yesterday was Christmas.

I have never really observed lent until I started attending First Pres. So this is somewhat new to me. Last year I decided to give up caffeine, namely Pepsi. It was so hard for me, and hard for Nicole having to live with me and deal with my bad attitudes. I went through withdrawal symptoms (such as migraines) and got really tired all the time. I was not a happy person for those 40 days. It was definitely a challenge for me, but I was successful.

This year I have decided that I am going to give up television in all its forms. I am not going to watch movies, dvds, tv, nothing. I think this will not only help me to focus on God and His Word, but also on my studies. Many a nights I sit in front of the tv thinking to myself about all the homework I should be doing, but am not.

In other news, I recently became a junior high school advisor at my church. The group is called S.U.R.G.E. (serving under a radical God everyday). So far so good. The first night some people thought I was actually in 8th grade, so I played along, and then when I was introduced as an advisor, they didn't believe me. I guess that is what I get for being short and young looking, and playing along with the joke. I am very surprised at the girls warmth and welcoming. They have all made a good effort to introduce themselves to me and really enjoy me being there. It is a lot of fun getting to know the girls, and the guys as well.

School is in full swing and I am already feeling the effects. This semester is going to be a doozie. I am taking western civ which explains everything. I hate history and reading and that is what this whole class is. I got my first job as a sign language interpreter at the school. It is a volunteer position, but I consider it a job because of the benefits I get (learning the setting, etc.). Today was the first day and it was intense. I am interpreting for a water skiing and wakeboarding class. I know I know, poor me, I get to be out on the lake everyweek. But it is hard work, there are more terms than I expected and they don't really have any signs so it is difficult. I am working at it and I think it will turn out fine in the end. I am just a little nervous, and hope that the two girls are getting everything they need. Not only do I have 16 units, jr. high advisor, and this interpreting job, I am also still working at the coffee shop.

If you think about it, please pray for strength, endurance, perseverance, and peace for the semester. Thanks to all.

Today I am thankful for the gift of sign language.

Friday, February 04, 2005

Its college

I am really getting frustrated with this school but more specifically my department. The deaf studies department has been unorganized and not helpful from day one. It is so hard to be a student and try and get help from them. So I recently wrote a dilemma I am having trying to get into a class. All I have to say is it is a good thing I didn't drop my other class, because I can't add the class I need to. If the teachers would just check their emails on a regular basis, maybe I would be able to add that class, but no, I had to wait an extra long time to even get a first response. So now I can't add the class and have to keep my class on fridays at 1. Not a big deal, I really like the teacher and the class is pretty interesting.

Not only am I having problems with that dept., I am also having problems with the University Corporation. Every semester we are supposed to receive these cards that say we are employees. The cards help us to receive 10% off on bookstore purchases as well as getting faculty parking passes. So I went upstairs to the offices and asked for a pass. They told me they were out. So then I asked for my employee card and the woman said she had already given them to my boss. So I went back downstairs and asked for it, and he didn't have one for me. So now I have to wait another week for them to get me a card so that I can go to parking services and get myself a parking pass. I hate being tossed around from place to place, and person to person. People need to get their s*@! in order and have it ready for people. I get so sick of it, and it seems to always happen to me. Lovely. Needless to say, after finding all this crap out, I had to work and was in a horrible mood. I was so upset.

Oh well, it is friday night and I am going to go enjoy myself and have some fun tonight. Doing what you ask? I have no idea. Later.

Thursday, February 03, 2005

The O.C. (original crew of Discovery Elementary). Heidi, Sarah, Me, and Lauren. I miss these girls:( We have been friends since 3rd grade, love 'em. Posted by Hello

My sweet neice wearing a Cougar hat....this pic makes me smile every time I see it. Posted by Hello

These are a few of my girls that took care of me on New Year's Eve. (Heidi, Krystle a.k.a. Watson, Lauren, Me) Posted by Hello

This is my neice Erika (15 months) on our Christmas Eve family trip to downtown Seattle.  Posted by Hello

Where'd they go?

With all of the travel and flying I have done in the past few years, I have met quite a few people. Some more interesting than others, but none the less I have met them. On this last flight from Seattle Tacoma International Airport to Burbank, I met one in particular. Here is the story.

I was in line to board the plane, and being a girl I was watching and looking at other people and noticed a pretty cute younger guy behind me. Of course after that I was wondering if he was going to sit near me or not. I was pleasantly surprised when he was sitting in the row in front of me. Hmm, this could be chance to talk to him. The plane was not even close to being full. In fact, almost every person was able to have their own row, very comfy and relaxing. So he was looking around before he sat down and made it a point to look at me and make direct eye contact and smile. Cute smile. So he sat down and didn't say anything during take off. As soon as we were up in the air and the flight attendants started their beverage service, he turned and started making conversation. We talked for almost the entire flight (probably about 1.5 hours). We talked about school living in California, versus the northwest. He is from Idaho. Conversation was easy and he was very entertaining, an interesting character. Then we landed, got our luggage and headed outside. He went to the shuttle area and I stayed by baggage claim and waited for my ride. As he was getting on to the shuttle he yelled across the street to me to make sure that I had a ride before he got on his bus to get his car. Such a gentleman, but John pulled up right then.

Basically, where I am going with this is: I can't help but think about what he is doing now. Where is he, does he remember me, does he think about me? I find myself thinking about random people I meet and never see again. Do they think of me, what are they doing now, where are they? Then there are those people that you don't really like, but they never seem to forget about you, and you wish they would forget you and move on. People are interesting and I find it interesting to meet different people from different places, and the airport is good for that. Maybe that is one positive of living in two different states half the year.

Also, there are those random people that capture your attention when you meet them through friends or at parties, or where ever, that turn into great friends, and possibly a significant other, under the best circumstances. I am very interested in studying people and learning about different people from different cultures and different backgrounds than mine. Maybe I should become a sociologist instead of an interpreter. Hmm, things to think about.

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

The year

I know I have been a bad girl and not posted for awhile, but it has been a crazy week or so. First off, I am now back in sunny California! YAY!!! Although it is a little chilly with all the wind.

Second, I started school this past Monday. It is already overwhelming. I am starting my interpreting classes and they are not what I expected, but hopefully I will survive. I am frustrated with the Deaf Studies dept. They told me I need to take this individual skills class but they didn't tell me until school started and I had my school schedule arranged with awesome teachers. Now I have to drop my good philosophy teacher and hope that he teaches again and that they offer it over the summer. Then I am trying to add this stupid class, and I can't get a permission number because the teacher is unavailable. Teachers nowadays are not responding to phone calls or emails. They tell you the best way to contact them, but it doesn't work. I hate it. Whatever, enough ranting.

Not only did I start back to school, but that means I also started back to work at the coffee shop on campus. JOY!!! Not only am I starting all these wonderful things, but I am also starting to be an advisor for the junior high group at my church. That should be fun, I hope. At least interesting and a change of pace.

Enough for now, peace.

Thursday, January 27, 2005

I didn't want that anyways..

Here is a funny little story from my day today. Not really exciting, just funny.

Today was my day to take my grandma out to do some shopping. We always go to lunch. Usually drive thru or fast food of some sort, but today was different. We both had a craving for Red Robin, so off we went. We finished up our errands and arrived at RR. Neither one of us could decide what we wanted so I suggested two items, the rice bowl and the BBQ chicken wrap and we split them both. One of the other servers was bringing our food to us, when all of a sudden she walked around the corner in the kitchen and one of the rice bowls went crashing to the ground upside down, rice and veggies went flying for feet. She looked up at us (we were sitting right by the kitchen) and said, "you didn't want that did you?" I almost wanted to say no, because I didn't really, the wrap was enough. But I told her we did. So they made a fresh one and brought it to Grandma and me. Good times. Everyone was laughing and making fun of the poor girl. I felt bad for her, I know how it feels to be in a restaurant and spill or break something and everyone looks over at you. Embarrassing. So ya, that was a fun adventure today.

Today I am thankful for good eats.

What lies ahead, or behind, or hidden...

I have been thinking about the future a lot lately. What am I going to do this summer? Am I going to return to Washington and continue working at the same restaurant I have been at for almost 4 years? Or am I going to stay in California and build on friendships and relationships that I have started or will start this semester? And then I think about a career, what am I going to be when I grow up? And who am I going to marry? When will my wedding be? Then I sit back and think to myself, who cares? Why am I wasting my time thinking about these trivia things? I should have the faith to know that God is going to answer these questions for me when the time is right. Not on my time, or when I want to know them (now!), but when God is ready to tell me Himself, when He feels I am ready to handle the answers He has for me.

I am trying to be thankful for the answers I do have and for each day that I have here. I am thankful that God has blessed me with so many wonderful friends to help me through my struggles. I know that I can always count on them for a pick me up. I need to stop worrying about tomorrow (Matthew 6:34) and be thankful for the days I have now, and those answers. Good night for now.

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

I'm a what??

So there hasn't been much going on in the 'quah (Issaquah) for the past few weeks. It has been extremely boring being the only person left and not in school. I am so ready to go back to Cali and get back into my routine of school and work. I never thought I would be saying it, but it is true. I am actually ready and willing to go to Cali. Weird. But I guess certain things have changed and that is good that I can say that.

If there is any big exciting news I will post again, but I have a feeling there won't be. Good night.

Saturday, January 22, 2005

Why me?

Last night I was bored and had nothing to do so my wonderful mother asked if I wanted to go see a movie. I wasn't really set on it but I had nothing else to do so off we went to Galleria. All the way there we were debating about what movie to see. I stopped at Taco Time to get some food because I was starving and we finally arrived at the theatre, still with no movie in mind. We got to the window and I asked the lady what time it was, 9:43. We could see Sideways, which got really good ratings, but started in 2 minutes (not enough time to get in, get drinks and popcorn and the necessities). Or we could see Hotel Rwanda which started at 10. That was the best option.

We were sitting in the theatre chatting during the previews and then it started. Oh my gosh, my body ached after watching this amazing movie. The story was so good. Briefly, it is about a hotel manager that basically has to turn his hotel into a refugee camp of sorts. It is saddening to see what these people had to go through, the tutsi people that is. It is a very good movie that keeps you holding on till the very end (which is why I had to pee so bad after, I didn't want to leave the theatre).

So now, after this wonderfully sad movie, I naturally had to pee. So off to the restroom we went. Sorry for the graphic details, but it is really funny. As I entered the stall I noticed automatic flushers on these specific toilets. I put a liner down, and proceeded to do my duties when all of a sudden to my surprise, the toilet began to flush. As I was peeing, my urine and nasty toilet water were being splashed back up at me with great force. There was nothing I could do except continue doing what I had to do. My mom was in the stall next to me laughing hysterically, which I was too. I was laughing so loud and snorting that I began to cry. It was humerous but absolutely disgusting at the same time. I couldn't believe it. Then when I wanted the stupid toilet to flush it wouldn't. So on the back of the toilet they have a little button that you can push if it doesn't go automatically. So of course, I reached to the back, and to my surprise, the movement made the toilet flush on it's own. So again, I was sprayed with lovely water, but this time all down the front of me and in my face. There was nothing I could do except run for my life. It was lovely.

So yeah, yesterday was not a good toilet day for me. I forgot to mention that I woke up yesterday morning to my bathroom toilet leaking water all over the floor. It was all puddled and I couldn't see it, so I stepped in it and got a little wet surprise. So I had to spend my morning taking care of that, mopping up the floor and draining the tank and everything.

Don't you just love toilets? Can't live with them, can't live without them. Anyhow, so yeah.

Thursday, January 20, 2005

It's A Girl!!!

No, I am not pregnant, and no I did not just give birth, nor did anyone I know.

My parents just sponsored a little girl from Uganda through World Vision. She is so cute. She is 5 1/2 years old and her name is Agnes. Such a darling little girl.

She is an only child and lives with her grandparents because her parents have died due to the AIDS/HIV epidemic that has spread throughout Africa. Such a tragic story, but a real story. Here is a link to Ryan's blog for more about AIDS in Africa.

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

The lowest of lows

Do you know that saying that says you have to hit rock bottom before you can work your way back up? Well that is where I am at. I am at the lowest of low. I am deep on the canyon floor looking in only one direction, up. Up to the skies, up to the top of the valley, up to my one and only, looking up to God.

I have recently (within the past couple of days and nights) come to the conclusion that I need to make some major life changes, and start over. I have not been living the life I wished to live. I have not been living a good Christian life (whatever that may mean). I have been living a life of lies, cheating, and I have been one of those hypocritical Christians.

I have fallen into the traps of society. I have allowed myself to be pressured into things I thought I wanted when in fact I didn't really want them and I knew they were bad for me.

That is not the only thing on my heavy heart tonight. I have been feeling like I am only an object of men's affection. Many guys in my life right now have just wanted me physically/sexually. I am not going to take it anymore. I don't need that, nor do I want it. I don't want men looking at me and wanting to get with me (although I know it will still happen because that is just how some guys are), but I don't want to play into it. I am sick of guys talking about me and my body, I am tired of them not wanting all of me. I want and need a man that is going to love me and love all of me. I don't need sexual impurity in my life, and I don't need the temptation to stumble. I am ending all physical relationships as of now. No more!!!

Today and last night have marked a turning point in my life. I am moving forward, upward, and I am not looking back or down. I am making changes in my life so that I can live a better more fruitful life. I want to live as Christ-like as possible. I don't want to say one thing and do another. I want to be able to be trusted, I want to be able to be confided in and I know some people can't do that right now because of where my heart is.

I am going to start taking small steps. I need to talk to some people and straighten things out, and I need to ask for forgiveness from some friends. I have been praying for God's forgiveness and comfort and also for guidance in my new journey. I am also starting to read my Bible on a daily basis, no more excuses. I am going to try a few different ways. I have a book called, The Bible in One Year, and Andrew also gave me a link to his friend Adam's website where he has posted a daily reading schedule.

All I can do now is ask for your prayers. Please be praying for me and my journey.

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

Family Ties

I just wanted to take a quick minute to remember my great uncle John. He died a few days ago of numerous heart attacks. He was having chest pain and being the kind of guy he was, didn't want to go to the doctor, but his four kids made him. He denied having chest pain while hooked up to the heart monitor when the doctor told him he was having a major heart attack. He went into surgery to try and fix his heart, but when he came out he had other complications and his kids decided to just let him go. So they "pulled the plugs." Today was the funeral service. My parents drove down to Oregon, but I did not want to go. I was tired from the weekend, and just wasn't in the mood.

Uncle John was a great guy. At least what I knew of him. He was always hilarious, making jokes and making us all laugh. I will never forget his long Santa looking beard.

Uncle John, you are now with your sister, my loving grandmother. Please be with her and take care of her and tell her I miss her a lot. I love you both and miss you too.

Death is such a hard part of life. I myself am not scared of dying, I just don't like dealing with the loss and pain of losing someone special. I can't get over the fact of the person not being here and not being able to see them until I die. I have only been to one funeral (my grandmother's) and that was enough for me. I don't like it, it was sad and hurt so bad to think that she was not going to be here anymore. I love you grandma and I know you are watching over me. RIP.


So I was away this weekend visiting some high school friends that go to Washington State Univ. Very fun times, but not very productive. I miss seeing the girls on a regular basis, but I don't think I could handle living in Pullman. Too cold and too snowy. I miss the California sunshine. If you want details of the weekend call me or IM me.

Also, if you didn't notice I joined facebook, so check out the link on the right. Peace for now.

Friday, January 14, 2005

My tunes not I Tunes

Today I bought two of Jeremy Camp's latest CDs, one is a more worship one and the other is just his. I also bought the Casting Crown's CD which is amazing. Actually all three are really good.

I am spending too much money....oh well, I will kick myself later.

Wednesday, January 12, 2005


Last night was just one of those nights where I was sad and lonely and longed to be held. Of course, that was not possible due to my circumstances of being single and being away from friends. I found myself talking to some wonderful men online, my co-worker Erik, and my good ol' friend Tyler, who both had some very kind words to comfort me, but it wasn't enough. I ended up laying in my bed listening to Mercy Me (my favorite band) and crying hysterically. It was one of those uncontrolable cries where you can't stop and you don't really know why you are crying. I do have to say that it helped me to fall asleep and helped to release some pent up emotions that I hadn't released up until then.

Ok, so I think I found some feelings about Garden State. First I want to start off by saying I had no idea that Bill Sperry knows Zach Braff (from college). Second of all, it took me two times of watching it to make it all the way through. The first time I fell asleep and the second time I stopped it and then restarted it because it was kinda slow and I didn't know how everything was gonna connect in the end, and I am still not really sure about the beginning. Maybe I am missing something. Anyhow, I think the movie really got to me because it is a depiction of the last few years of my life. I really identified with Zach's character. My life is split into two. My life back here in Washington (where my family and long time friends are) and my life at school in California. Zach is also split between his home town where he grew up and his life as an actor in Los Angeles. Even my friends and Zach's friends are similar in ways that I choose not to disclose. I just feel so many similarities to Zach as he returns to his home town. Especially when he talks to Natalie Portman in the pool, about what "home" is. I have posted about that previously. I am not sure what home is, is it where you put your things, or where your heart is? He also says that he may not have a "home" until he starts a family and makes a new home for himself and his family. I agree and feel the same way, I may not know for a few more years. Then of course comes the love story. Zach and Natalie fall in love, but they are going to have to make it long distance or end it because he is going away. This is what happened to me when I was dating Tim. It hurt every time I had to say goodbye after a visit to Washington. I can't really explain it any more than this. If you have seen the movie, you know what I mean and what I am going through and have gone through. If you haven't seen it, you better. It is a good flick, just a little slow. If you have any questions about all this, let me know via phone or comment space.

Today I am thankful for opportunities and friends to expand your mind and horizons. Peace.

Tuesday, January 11, 2005


I just finished watching Garden State. It is a good movie, but I need some time to settle. Too many emotions were struck by that film. Stay tuned for my reactions. Peace.

BFF (Best Friends Forever)

Recently I have been hanging out and chatting with friends that either I have known since 2nd grade or with friends who know like we have known each other for that long, but just met a few years ago. I have noticed that I am very lucky to have such amazing friends. I don't know how I could get through life without them, they are there for me no matter what.

It wasn't until a few days ago that I really began to think about what my friends mean to me. I was talking with Bill (Mr. Amazing himself) and realized that I have learned so much from him. Then I was talking to John (Mr. Cool) and thought to myself, he is so much fun, and we are like brother and sister. I can't even thank him for being there for me all the time. So on and on, I kept thinking about each one of my friends, and realized that if it weren't for each of them, I would have a pretty dull life.

So the point of my rambling....I love my friends. I can't say it enough, I love you, I love you, I love you. I love you all. Whether I have known you for years and years, or just a few days, I love you. In the past few days and weeks, I have really been trying to tell each and every one of friends how much they mean to me, and that I love them and appreciate their friendships. I think it important to tell them what they mean to you. You never know when they can be gone from your life, and I want them to know that I care about each and every one of them. It is also rewarding and you get a good feeling inside, all warm and fuzzy. I actually had a friend tell me how much they appreciated me as well and that was special, you learn how they really feel about you when you open up to them like that. I love it (or maybe I am just in a lovey dovey mood).

To all my friends: I LOVE YOU!!!!

Monday, January 10, 2005

You are right :(

Ok so I was laying around watching tv instead of Sex in the City because the season premiere of The Bachelorette was on. As I was sitting there watching these men try and hit on Jen, and try to put their best foot forward, I couldn't help but think of conversations I have had with my friend Tyler.

Tyler and I have always had differences in the shows we watch on tv. Tyler usually watches sports, whereas I watch those, plus shows such as Dr. Phil (which Tyler hates), Oprah, any kind of makeover show, Perfect Proposal, etc. I am into some of the reality shows, but I don't always follow them religiously. Whenever Tyler and I get together we always watch something (usually a movie because we can't agree with tv shows). Whenever we talk about tv, he always tell me that I watch "brain pollution."

It wasn't until today that I realized, "wow, Tyler was right, these shows are a bunch of brain pollution." I never really thought about it, but these guys on the show, just really made me think about what I was watching. How could I sit through two hours and not learn anything (except that I would never go on national television to find my possible husband)? I just didn't understand how pointless some shows really are. So Tyler, I just want to say that you were right, I do watch a lot of brain pollution. But you know, if they aren't hurting me, why should I stop watching them?

The shows that I watch are never bad shows, they just don't help me, teach me, or stimulate my brain. Maybe that is why I like them, they are just shows that take up time, and pass the time.

Do you watch brain pollution? If so, what do you watch?

Reality sucks

This weekend was a much needed break/vacation from work. As always, good things must come to an end, and that is just what happened. Today, my first day back in town and I am scheduled to work a double. I worked from open to close, 9-9. What a wonderful day, NOT!!

It wouldn't be so bad if we had some good people working, but Coho has the worst staff they have ever had. It doesn't make working very fun. Oh well, enough venting. I am going to go rent the first season of Sex and the City and just kick back for the night.


Saturday, January 08, 2005


I just want to start off by saying congrats to Justin and Amy on their wedding day. They are so cute together and today was beautiful despite the rain.

As most of you know, I have been doing lots of reading and thinking over the past month while I have been home in Washington. It has been very enlightening, but at the same time, very dark and depressing. I don't know what I am supposed to do with all this information and knowledge. Where do I go from here? Recently I have been just laying around feeling miserable, and I don't know the cause.

I have been feeling lost. I don't know my place in life, I don't know where I am supposed to be. My mind is blurred with thoughts of love, passion, romance, and many other feelings. I am torn between two wonderful places and I don't have a sense of belonging, a sense of "home." I love so many different people in both places that my heart aches everytime I have to say goodbye (which has been frequent lately). I am tired of missing out on things that happen when I am not in town, I am tired of coming home to an empty nest with no one around. I came to my apartment this weekend and felt like I was moving into the dorms for the first time. It all felt so foreign to me. I was lost, I didn't know what to do with myself except cry and be sad and lonely. Then I realized that I was home and that I needed to get over my wollowing and do something about it, and I did.

Basically, what I am trying to say is that I feel a lack of direction, a mixture of unpleasant emotions, and more that I just can't put into words yet and that I haven't figured out. All I ask is that you pray for me however you feel led. Thanks.

Thursday, January 06, 2005

Winter wonderland, or is it?

I have been waiting for this day since I came back to Washington. Today is the first day of snow at my house. This winter has been extremely dry for this neck of the woods. The mountains barely have snow. What a wonderful surprise to wake up to this afternoon (yes I didn't get up until after 12), snow covered sidewalks and driveways. After a little while I got all bundled up and decided to go walking in the snow, but I was saddened. The drizzling rain had melted the snow in just a few hours. How sad. Oh well, it is supposed to continue to snow all weekend. Hopefully it will let me get out of town safely tomorrow, so I don't miss Justin and Amy's wedding on Saturday.

To all of you students that are heading back to school, travel safe, be safe, and have fun. I will miss you all.

Happy Birthday Bev (Tim's mom)!!!

Off to dinner with my daddy. Peace.

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

You're killing me smalls

I have been thinking and reading alot which has been nice, and I think I understand a few things better now. However, I still do not understand the "single life." Why would someone want to be unmarried for their entire life? Now I know some people choose it, and some it just happens to, but I just can't imagine being without someone significant in my life.

I have thinking about my journey as a single woman, and I have to say that I would much rather be in a relationship with someone I cherish and adore. That isn't the case right now, and I am in need of some affection. I have been single now for over two months and it is good and bad. I miss having someone to cuddle with at night, I miss the simple kisses, I miss the security and comfort you get when you are with someone.

I must say that I have learned alot through all of the single time, and I am growing in Christ. But that doesn't make it any easier.

Monday, January 03, 2005

There is a hole in my pocket

So now that I am working at Coho, I am making good tips (at least $20 a day). So I paid all my bills and rent and all that and am basically just living off of my tips. So I have had more money and it is just burning a hole in my pocket. I couldn't decide what I wanted to buy and then I remembered that I didn't get the CDs I wanted for Christmas so I decided to take my break today and go and buy them.

I purchased the newest album by Mercy Me "Undone" and Chris Tomlin's "Arriving." Both are good CDs, but I definitely have to say I am a huge Mercy Me fan and this CD is amazing. I love Bart's voice, so pure and amazing. Good times, I am happy now. Good purchase.

Today I am thankful for slippers and sweaters. It is so cold up here, it got down into the low 20s last night and today was cold again with no clouds in the sky.

I can't wait to come home to Cali this weekend. So excited to see everyone.

Sunday, January 02, 2005

Time flies

Today I am thankful for the gift of hearing and sight. I was watching Extreme Makeover Home Edition and it really touched my heart. It was a family with Deaf parents and a hearing (normal) son, and the other son was blind and autistic. It is just amazing to me how they dealt with everyday occurences, yet had to worry about their son escaping in the night and not being able to sleep. It was hard for them to communicate with each other and I think alot of people take that for granted. It is hard to imagine being deaf or even blind. I look up to people that have high hopes despite their disabilities. That is why I am majoring in what I am. I want to help these people, I want to be a light in someone's life.

I cannot believe that it is already a new year. It seems like I just started school. I feel like I didn't go to school for the whole semester, it is amazing how time flies when you are having fun and enjoying life.

I am sad because this week all my friends are starting to head back to school and I am heading to Cali for a weekend, but I still have a month left here in Washington. How sad is that?

I have had such an amazing time while I have been home. It has been a mix of sadness, loneliness, but overall very fun and adventurous. I love coming home and getting together with the crew of girls and just having fun being together and catching up on life. It is weird how friendships never change. Good times girls.

My new year is going to be about having fun and not holding back. I am all about living life to the fullest with no regrets. I am tired of being that little girl who never takes risks and is always in the shadows. It is time for me to step out and live. I don't want to live how others want me to, I want to do what I want and I want to have fun doing it. It is a new year and I want to try new things, experience different cultures, and live out loud.

If you have something in mind that will help to achieve this goal let me know. I am all about doing these things with people and friends.